Thank You For Today

I'm not sure of exactly what is happening here but I know there's something.
It's been awhile since I've had that niggling feeling creeping up behind me, been awhile since something has been waiting to pounce and I'm pretty sure it's just around the corner now. The last time I had a taste of this feeling was quite some time ago. Maybe I'm reading too much into it. I do that so often in my life. Or maybe something does really exist there. Perhaps it's not just me who sees it either. There's magic twirling around people who fit in the way we all want to in this life. Magic energising the soul when that special bond is found. It may never go further or deeper than that and yet its simplicity is somehow everything and more we had ever hoped for. Sometimes it's the quiet moments, or the silent words that create miracles. Often I wonder if I'm alone in my over-analysis of the human mind and everything it creates yet on and on I ponder, hoping everyday for it to become clearer and a little easier to understand.
Is it the thrill of the catch that intrigues us or is there really something more at the core? I'm still trying to figure out what lies at my core. Am I a hard, hot rock in the middle or a gooey liquid melt waiting to ooze out? Am I a soul filled with love and light who looks for and follows a life emerged in experience and the will to grow or am I stuck in ways I've known for so long? I'm still searching.... I'm still trying... and with everyday I am learning more. I want it all. I want to be inside. I want to be inside everything and everyone and this place we created. I want to see it all and understand it all and embrace all that I am able to. These people make me whole. They make me who I am and I am touched that they are a part of me. So many different lives and worlds intertwined for the one simple purpose and for whatever reason, in this day and this month and this year, we are the ones who are here. It might not be what any of us are truly looking for yet somehow we all ended up here. I am thankful for that and thankful for today. The appreciation of this knowledge and relief of being here together is somehow lost in the pettiness of people unwilling to learn. I don't get brought down with them here. Maybe that's why I have stayed. To learn and to find a safe haven here within these four little walls. I feel free from myself today. In this moment, I fit here. I wonder if they see what I see? I wonder if I'm alone in my own thoughts. I don't feel I am. They know. We all see each other and that's all I could ever ask for. Thank you for today.