Nothing is deep here...

I want to be somewhere where I can feel free to be who I am inside. For such a long time I've been hidden from the person I was meant to be. I think it's because for such a long time all I've thought about is the importance of my relationship and maintaining it. Perhaps that isn't the purpose of life? Perhaps what makes us desirable or intriguing in this life is our ability to pursue our own goals and ambitions. Maybe the image of a person following their gut instincts is the very reason we attract others to our circle. This is what I have lost. I have so much more to give than what I give currently. So many people to see. So much more exists than here in this town... with these same people I have known for so long. They are sweet and they are kind but they are not where I see myself. They don't feel how I feel. Nothing is as deep or as treasured as it should be.