Long Ago

What if i told you that in so many ways you saved my life? Saved me from myself and made me see the light? Or at least a light of some sort. Maybe it was just you. You made me wake up from whatever trance i had been living in for such a long time. Reminded me of what it felt like to live, learn and love once more.
Perhaps that is all that was intended for the "us" that once existed. Maybe it gave us both a chance to learn and discover just one more thing about us as individuals and if that's so, then there cant be a wrong in that. Only the right that it once was. Maybe I needed that time to see where the outcome would lead me. And it lead me right around in one big circle and back to where I was standing in the beginning. It was a very large and at times twisted circle. A long and confusing lap to run... and it left me panting at the end of it all. Sometimes I get the feeling that I didn't really stop running at all... that I've been doing these laps alone for months now. I think it got my heart rate pumping at a wild pace and I think it's about time I put a stop to this incredibly repetitive race that exists between you and I. The heavens know you stopped running long ago. So why is it then that I will be the only person in your life who always wants more out of you? I see it deep within, maybe that's why I expect so much more than you're willing to give. If I gave you nothing else in this lifetime, I would hope that what I did leave you with is the knowledge that looking deeper and admitting it can be hard to do, but if you let yourself, it can be the most amazing feeling in the world. I believe in you. I believe in you for reasons other people wouldn't even know are alive beneath your skin. If nothing else, know that I see you, even if it's that very thing you're hiding from. The realisation that perhaps, just maybe, someone knows you nearly better than you know yourself...