A lot of unexpected things came from my trip back home and I'd like to take this moment to correct something I said last month on arrival into Sydney...
Because what I said then was, that I'd finally found a home... when in fact I'd had one all along - and now I am able to say with all of my being that I have two homes, both equally as important and equally special.
I fit right in the middle of two worlds and regardless of the trouble it can at times cause, I guess I am lucky to say there is more than one place in the whole world that I feel safe and loved.
My trip home (to Sydney) and the past few weeks have been so much more than I ever expected. I caught up with so many people who are really special to me and I smiled more than I have in awhile. This visit, I also remembered how to appreciate where you came from and what your past represents not only today but also for the future.
We have been through a lot... my past and I and not all things turned out how I'd expected (peachy) but while there are plenty of things I still regret or events that play on my mind that I was hurt by... in the end, none of that matters. The vital part of this story is the plot-line that remained from beginning to end with survival of the dramatic climax and all. (Not that this is the end of course!) The important thing is that everyone in life faces trialing days but it's those who weather the storm and come through it with more strength and understanding than ever that count the most.
We've had our rough times Sydney and I've loved escaping you in the past but I can say today with 100% of my heart that I will miss you and the love you showed me this past month.
Maybe all I ever needed was the return to my life of people from my past, along with a bunch of new but equally special friends mixed with weeks worth of smiles, music, photos, dancing and all the people I love in one place. (Well not quite ALL.)
I have been in the past, am still today and probably always will be the naive fool who wants to believe everything is as great as it seems in the moment. And curse or not, and unsure if it all will last - I'm loving what I refound and I hope with all my might that it stays exactly the same. It's been awhile since I belonged and even though it's just the beginning... I'm loving every minute of it.
See you soon my beautiful Sydney - you will be missed.
xo
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